Two years ago today I delivered our first two daughters into the world at 21 weeks gestation. I have been thinking about what I would do today to commemorate those precious girls that we lost. I bought myself some tulips and plan to hang up a cross stitch someone made for us with their names and birth dates. I still have an ache in my heart for those babies and what we lost. Thinking about that day brings back pain and sorrow, but I now also have wonder and gratitude as I think about the time that has followed that day. I will never understand why we had to lose them, but I do know that their lives were not in vain. I know that I am changed by them, and look at life differently. I am more conscious of appreciating where we are right now, and trying (sometimes not always succeeding, especially when I am up in the middle of the night) to live in the moment. Emma and Charlotte will be in turn touched by them as well. I have felt more acutely the connection of living and dieing. How precious life is, and how it can be gone so quickly.
Remembering Wilma Jane and Hannah Grace Hoemann
Saying a prayer of comfort for you today. My daughter's birthday is Feb. 10th, so I'm also mentally and emotionally preparing for that birthday celebration. We've done something different every year, but I think we'll celebrate similarly to what we did last year...it was nice.
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Ashley
We see just part of the the wholeness of life. Sometimes there are no answers to things. Sometimes it makes sense later, sometimes it never makes sense. I send you hugs and good thoughts.
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