18 Weeks!

It is hard to believe but we have already reached the 18 week mark.  I had an appointment with my specialist this week.  We got to see a lot of both babies.  The doctor had lots of positive things to say and doesn't need to see me again unless my regular doctor thinks I need to.  Every day with these babies is such a blessing.  While my anxiety has been rearing its ugly head lately, I also am so thankful to be at this point too. 

Here are some profile pictures of the girls.  Oh wait, I didn't tell you?  We are having two GIRLS again.

                                                    Baby A

                                              Baby B

 The resolution on the scanned pictures are not that good, but you can see the sweet noses and outline of their profiles.  I plan to write more about my thoughts on having two more girls and how I am doing in general, but I wanted to make sure to share these pictures with you.  And now I will leave you with a picture of me at 18 weeks. 

It's been over two weeks?

I can't believe that it has been that long since I have been on "bed rest" and since I have blogged.  Time is a funny thing, it can slip away quickly while feeling like it takes forever.  These last two weeks have been a combination of busy and quiet, and I have worked on several issues.

I put bed rest in quotations because I am really on more of a modified bed rest.  I don't have to be completely flat on my back all of the time.  My doctor wants me to rest as much as possible, but I can still get up to use the bathroom, shower, eat, and even sit at the computer for a little while.  He has stressed that in the coming weeks there is a large chance that I will get more restrictions, but so far I am making this work pretty well.  I have come up with a schedule for my day.  It goes something like this:

• Wake up with husband and eat breakfast
• Watch morning TV (including GMA, and Live)
• Do some work from home on computer
• Eat lunch with husband
• Take afternoon nap
• Read or work on some sort of craft
• Eat dinner with husband
• Watch prime time TV with husband and then go to bed

That is really how my days have been.  I think that partly why I have not blogged is because I feel like I really have nothing to share.  The days kind of blur together.  I have been working through a lot of anxiety and learning to have my needs heard in a healthy manner.  I have started going to the doctor twice a week.  I realized that after about four or five days I started to really panic about things not being ok.  After some thinking about this, it was clear that this was related to the fact that I was at the doctor's office on Wednesday and then delivered our daughters that Saturday.  The fact that things changed so quickly is really effecting me now.  Going to the doctor twice a week has really helped to alleviate that some.  I have also found that being more isolated has caused me to draw away a little bit from people, not so good.  I am working on asking for help when I need it, and reaching out to people even though it is hard for me.

Next week I go back to my maternal fetal medicine doctor to get a major scan of the babies so I am hoping to have ultrasound pictures to share.  Also, my inlaws are here helping me since my husband is gone on a business trip.  That has been really lovely so far.  I have been trying to think of ideas for things to blog about, such as books I have read.  If you have any suggestions, I would love to hear them.