I am still here!

When I got on my blog this morning I realized it had been a couple of weeks since my last post.  I just don't understand how the time can pass so quickly but feel like it is passing so slowly.

I am still pregnant and now into my 32 week, which is just amazing.  Babies seem to be doing great.  They are moving around a lot and always do really well at my weekly non-stress tests.  Next Monday will be another ultrasound to see how big they are.  I am still on complete bed rest, but the end is getting closer.  I did have to do the three hour glucose test, which was unpleasant, but hopefully everything is ok there.

We have had some sadness.  Last weekend one of our sweet cats got very very sick, had to spend the weekend at the vet, and ended up not making it.  It was really horrible.  This was the cat that had spent the last couple of months glued to my side, keeping me warm and calm as I rested in bed.  She loved to eat watermelon and steal salad.  She drank water exclusively from the faucet or cups.  She was dearly loved and brought both my husband and I a lot of entertainment and joy.  She will be sorely missed.

This weekend was also a year since our twin daughters Wilma and Hannah were born too early.  It was a sad and reflective day.  My mom bought some beautiful daffodils and I did a lot of reflecting and remembering.  My husband and I talked some about how we were feeling and I allowed myself to feel sad when I needed too, and also get distracted with other things when I needed too. 

On a more upbeat note, we are getting much more prepared for these babies arrival.  We now have car seats, a co-sleeper for them to sleep in, bath things, swaddling blankets, and enough newborn clothes that they won't be naked!  We also have packed a bag to take to the hospital.  I am feeling excited and overwhelmed about how things are going to go in the next couple of weeks.  I think because there are a lot of things that I can not control, I have been feeling a little anxious about a few things I do some control over, such as names (we have not decided on any yet), what to put on our registry, and who to use for a pediatrician.

You are missed sweet girl.

A Glimpse Into My Future

I feel really fortunate to have been connected with another mom who lives in my community and has twin girls who are 21 months old.  They came over yesterday and while we talked about all different things concerning twin pregnancy, birth, and infant care, I heard and saw the little girls as they played with my mother and were busy having fun together.  While it was overwhelming to see two busy toddlers, it was also really wonderful.  They were well behaved, cheerful, and their mother seemed upbeat and positive.  Hurray for seeing how great things can be in a couple of years and for being able to connect with another mom of twins.

2010 Ended with a Bang and 2011 Started with Me Still Pregnant!!

Ok, I will admit it, I have been in a funk.  This is getting hard and uncomfortable and I am starting to get whiny.  One friend I talked to said that she guessed it was like running a marathon and I am getting to the point where people "hit the wall," before the end but after they have been going for a while.  I like that because lots of people push through and finish marathons, so I can push through too!

There is really good news though.  It is 2011 and I am still pregnant.  That is amazing.  It was a huge goal for me and we have made it.  I had a doctors appointment on Monday and he is so excited that we are 29 weeks and a few days.  He really feels like no matter when the babies are born there will be a good outcome and we are going to take babies home.  He does really want me to hang on for another month so we can have and keep the babies at the hospital here and not have to go an hour to the level 3 NICU.  I am hoping for that too.  The babies look great and are getting big.  Baby A is 2lbs 13oz and Baby B is 2lbs 14oz.  All the egg nog I drank during the holidays helped I think.

2010 would not leave without making a statement.  I felt like it was taunting me, saying "I know you want me to leave, but I am not done with you yet!"  New Year's Eve brought horrible storms, lots of lightning and thunder, and power outages for hours.  During one of the violent weather cells one of the trees in our front yard got struck by lightning!  I have never been that close to a lightning strike.  The whole house lit up and shook.  Now our tree has a strip all the way down one side where the bark was forced off.

The beginning of 2011 has also brought the realization that I need to get organized and more prepared.  I now have a list of lists I need to make, such as "things to pack for the hospital," "meals to make and freeze," "things needed for sleeping or diapering or feeding, ect" and more.  It is a start!