Dear June

Dear June,

            What a month you have been!  You have always been my favorite month of the year, what with being the first month of summer and my birth month, but this month has been filled with many changes and emotions.  I think that I have felt every emotion possible with all of the things that have happened. 

You began with the girls' due date and a reminder of everything I have lost.  Then came my birthday three days later.  That was a sweet day full of love and friendship.  Next came the ups and downs of looking for a house, finding one much sooner than we thought, putting in an offer, and finally the prospect of truly being homeowners.  I also found out that I have the possibility of employment in the fall.  I will write more about this when it is for sure, but just the possibility has brought both excitement for being able to start my career and anxiety of if I am prepared and can actually be successful. 

Throughout this month I have been planning and organizing a memorial for my daughters that we are having in July.  That has been hard, but I feel peace in knowing that it is the right thing to do.  Finally, you are leaving me with much sadness and fear as my husband's grandfather had a stroke yesterday. 

June, as much as I usually like you, I am not sad to see you go this year.  You did bring good things like our house and a possible job opportunity,  but also much sadness, fear, and anxiety.  So, I am not too sad in saying "See you next year June!"

- Ann