A Huge Sigh of Relief

The surgery is done!  I am so glad that this step is behind us.  We still have some rocky patches ahead, but this was a huge deal for me.  Now I know that there are two tight and knotted stitches of material like 30lb fishing line holding my babies in.  I had a doctors appointment today to check everything, and it looks really good.  I feel much more relaxed about things right now.  I know that as time goes on and we approach the time when I delivered my daughters, it will be difficult.  But that is later, and right now I am really working on being in the moment. 

Hope you are having a nice start to the week.

Feeling Loved and Supported from Far Away

I received a package from my mother today that I know was her way of putting love and hugs and good thoughts and prayers into something I can hold.  When I opened I cried and cried, because I truly felt the love that she had pack with it, which was just what I needed to not feel quite so scared about tomorrow.  What she sent was a plaque, or board, that she had painted in 1987 when I was four years old.  We always had it in the kitchen and I have read it time and time again.  It has little encouragements and sayings on it that have always made me feel better, and also I feel really embody how my mom chose to parent me.  Some of them include "I like you just the way you are" "You can trust your feelings to help you know" "You have every right to be here" "You're welcome to come home again" Your needs are ok" "You don't have to hurry."

Thank you mom, for loving me so completely, all the time, without question or concern.  Thank you for raising me in a purposeful and thoughtful manner.  Thankful for being here for me in just the right way, even though you are far away.  My prayer is that I can look to your example to be the very best mother I can to be my own children, and I know that you are an incredible grandmother to all of my children.

I was going to include a picture, but right now I feel like holding on to this just for myself.  I will include one in the future when I feel like it is appropriate.

14 Weeks

We have made it 14 weeks.  This is really the first milestone that I have been aiming for in this pregnancy.  We have lots more ahead of this, but thinking about it today, 14 weeks is a long time.  It is over three months.  It is the week I will have my surgery.  I went today and pre-checked in for Friday.  Only three more days and these babies will be stitched in there snug and sound.  That will be such a relief for me.  I leave you with a belly shot.  It has been a month since I shared my last one and you can tell that they are getting bigger in there.